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– Gringos are sometimes kidnapped for sport, warned a Brit. With
that hair, you’d be hard not to notice.
The Canadian scoffed at the notion of danger— secretly yearned,
in fact, for adventure — and had only decided against thumbing to
the coast after witnessing an incident near the zocolo. Men identifying
themselves as police had beaten one of the Australians he’d been
drinking with, a rugby player built like a bulldozer.
Witherspoon woke late the following morning, his brain cells
jumbled by too much mescal. From the hotel balcony he’d watched
as the Cessna he was booked to be aboard struggled to clear the treetops.
The desk clerk who’d promised to rouse him early — who’d
accepted a gratuity to do so — feigned amnesia. The proprietor of
the airline refused him a refund.
– The next flight leaves in one week, señor. he said. Would you
like to purchase a ticket?
– I have a ticket!
– Correct, señor. But your ticket has today’s stamp.
Paco brakes hard, scattering a clutch of chickens. He rolls down the
window and calls to the hitchhiker.
– Dondeva?
With dictionaries open in their laps, they know just enough of the
other’s language to be understood. The Mexican says he’s a pharmaceutical
student soon to be wed. He’s heard of the Canadian on radio
broadcasts.
– You like to throw the beanball, no?
– I led the league.
Whenever a pretty girl is spotted, Paco toots his horn. She is
assigned a number from one to 10, which is then averaged out to much
laughter and swigs from a bottle the Mexican keeps under the seat.
Halfway to the coast, Paco stops for a siesta. Witherspoon opts for
a dip in the river running parallel to the road. Young housewives,
their laundry spread out to dry on its grassy banks, are intrigued by
the stranger’s tangerine hair and cornflake freckles. He strips and
dashes into the current. The giggling voyeurs float bars of soap
downstream inside empty juice cartons.
– Norteamericano, he hears them say. El hombre muy blanco.

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around talking and staring. She was polite, but she had to be careful
not to seem to encourage men like Jim because she knew what
they were thinking. The ranks of apples passed by. She thought of
the golden delicious as the golden apples of the Hesperides, Juno’s
wedding present from the goddess of the Earth. She never mentioned
such thoughts to her friends. They would think she was
being snooty. Talking about clothes and boys and movies was part
of what was so boring about this town, this valley. Poodie James
was a reader, but she couldn’t discuss books with him. She couldn’t
discuss anything with him. He couldn’t talk, which was why she
decided to visit him last summer. Maybe she should learn sign language.
She knew that he spent hours reading in the library. She
saw books in his cabin. She did not regret having gone to see him
there, but she had decided it would be foolish to go again. I do
know where babies come from. I was lucky. We were lucky. Poodie
was a dear little man, intelligent and funny, but who in town knew
that, or cared?
“More boxes, Miss.”
Good grief, Jim was still standing there, still staring. Marcie
gave him her biggest smile.
“Thank you, Jim. Goodbye.”
“Oh, “better get back to work,” he said, as if he had thought of it
himself.
The day’s run of goldens was ending. Marcie looked down the
line and saw the first rows of reds advancing. “Where the apple
reddens, never pry—Lest we lose our Edens, Eve and I.” That was
Browning sneaking up on me. I hope I haven’t lost my Eden. She
watched her hand pluck a red delicious from the mass of fruit passing
by and tried to picture that man in Spain.

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“Sonny, there’s something we must pursue. It seems the mayor
is recruiting field commanders for his campaign against Poodie
James.”
The stream’s volume was half what it was in the spring when the
snow melt coursed out of the mountains and the creek churned
brown and expanded into pastures, fields and meadows, ripping
young trees out of the banks. In autumn, with the air warm in sunlight
and chill in shadow, the creek ran low and clear among the
boulders and idled a while in the little lake behind the falls before it
made its leap. The force and weight of the water shook the ground,
stirred the air, settled mist onto Poodie’s face. Vapor fashioned the
sun’s rays into a thousand rainbows that intersected, combined and
danced above the creek’s plunge into itself. No trout broke the surface
of the pool below the falls today, and there were no fishermen
along the creek, just the peace that he found in this place.
Poodie felt at one with water. He needed to be near it, with it.
He felt happiness at the pool, playing in the water with children,
teaching them to swim. He pulled his wagon alongside the canals
that brought water to the apples, slow narrow ditches flowing
through overhangs of weeds, wide ones rushing through concrete
channels, pouring through sluice gates into orchards. He loved to
be by the river, by the creeks and streams that fed it. The Columbia
flowing past his cabin occupied his dreams, called to him, pulled at
him.
The wind blew down from the north, whipping and churning
the Columbia into fields of waves that rose and hung suspended
and foaming before they collapsed back into the river. Poodie
imagined that the waves were creatures popping up from the
depths of the river, dissolving, sinking, reassembling and elevating
again to catch glimpses of the world above the surface. The idea
was no more fantastic, he thought, than life in the ocean; coral
reefs that seemed to be stone but were animals, fish with lanterns
growing from their foreheads, fields of worms waving in currents
like grass blowing in the wind, whales the size of houses …

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drumming on wood, metal, plastic. House lights begin to flare up
and down the street.
At the top of the stairwell my father shoulders the door; it doesn’t
budge. My mother learned the value of a solid defence the night
brother Burt was on acid and believed he was being eaten alive by
scorpions. I remember wishing he had been.
– This is my house! my father declares. Given the territory each
controls, others might disagree.
– I’m calling the cops! my mother snarls.
– Whatcha gonna charge me with, huh? Breaking curfew?
My father staggers to the back of the basement; I can hear him
rooting around in the toolbox. He reappears at my bedroom door.
– This otta do the job, eh? He holds up a hatchet.
My father returns to the top of the stairs and begins hacking.
Wood chips ricochet off the walls. With each swing of the blade,
splinters of light from the kitchen spill into the dark stairwell. But
every time my father tries squeezing through the opening, my
mother wallops him with a broom.
A few more chops, the breach widens. He resumes the advance.
She falls back, pelting him with dishes. Plates and coffee mugs
explode. Dad retreats.
– You still got that football helmet? he asks me.
He is emboldened by its fibreglass shell, the webbed faceguard.
On his next foray my father pokes his fortified skull through the hole
in the door, but he comes under heavy fire once more. This time he’s
pinned down by a fusillade of footwear.
Eventually my mother exhausts her ammo. A hush falls over the
battlefield. The lights in the homes of our somnolent neighbours are
extinguished. Sleep at last.
Blood dripping from the ceiling. Brain matter splattered across the
walls. That’s what I expect to find upon waking that Mother’s Day,
the sun peeking above the asphalt rooftops, our house silent.
Vapours hover over the sodden lawn in a primordial smoulder.
In the living room I discover my mother on the sofa; she’s curled
up in a sleeping bag. Dad has taken the bedroom; I can smell him. It
would probably take a stick of dynamite to pry loose the helmet. I
knew someone keen to light the fuse.

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“Everything seems to be alright, my dearest. What is the news on your side? Do
you have the okay on the new apartment?”
“Yes, it’s done. I’m taking possession October 15th, and hope to move in by the
end of October; Jennifer is excited and looking forward to that.”
“How do you feel about Jennifer moving in with you?”
“I’m very happy also, my uncle. I’ll tell you all about it later when we move in;
it’s a very special place. I’m very happy.”
“Very good, and how is Talal?”
“He’s good; we had the funeral for Matthew Roberts yesterday, and as you can
understand, Jennifer and Emily are going through a hard time right now. Bevan is
here in Los Angeles also. He came for the funeral and I’m going to have coffee with
him this morning. Is there anything you would like me to tell him? He always asks
about you. He wants to see you soon, he says. He says you’ll understand.”
“Oh, that’s very good. Well, when you see him, tell him I’d like to see him soon,
also. I understand. Now I’m going to send you a document to read.”
Hakim prints out the five page document, Ibrahim’s monthly statement of
transactions with Regis Hudson, but the middle page is something else, it reads, “I
want to seeTalal. See that he comes and visits me; perhaps with awoman? Shred this.”
He takes the sheet of paper and puts it through the shredder.
He already has a copy of the monthly statement; he wonders why the old man
wants to see Talal.
He feels rejuvenated after talking to Ibrahim and after a refreshing shower he
notices Jennifer still isn’t up; he finds her half-covered with bed sheets. But his
mind is on his meeting with Bevan and on his uncle’s comment about Talal.
Why would Ibrahim need to see Talal?


Bevan Longhorn is in the lobby of the Sheraton Hotel, drinking coffee and reading
the newspaper as he waits for Hakim. The daily news is always about the cost
of living going through the roof, instability in Africa, and the Palestinian people,
who still fighting the Israelis in an endless conflict that has made headlines for
more than six decades. Egypt has been in turmoil since the opening of the election
laws passed by President Mubarak ten years ago. New political parties have
sprung up, the establishment fights them with all its might. There is no end to the
conflicts in the news.
He’s on his refill when Hakim comes in.
“Good morning, Admiral.”
“Good morning, Hakim.”
He calls the server who takes Hakim’s order for fruit salad and coffee.

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