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It was a period ambience even then but it drew the global punter and I didn’t
want to tinker with the formula. The curios and the industrial relics were
doing well, a famous designer had just bought the shell of a Wurlitzer jukebox,
while over in the clothes section, some sunny blonde creatures in cheesecloth
and tight jeans were rummaging daintily through the old lace. Pauline the Sex
Police Person would accuse me of self-indulgence there—yes, she was firing
accusations even then—but this is a spiritual exercise, to recreate through sensuous
evocation the exact details of that crucial afternoon.
I was half-listening to the ritual shamblings of a local freak who claimed to
be a secret roadie for Hawkwind. Every week he expounded his scheme for a
Silver Machine to transport himself and the group to a deep space colony; then
he’d pester me for obscure sword’n’sorcery items. “Thrustmasters of the
Gormlands . . . Come on, man. It must be in here somewhere.”
I never replied, because Larry was strolling through the doorway. As I got
up, his long stone face, like an ethnic sculpture of Jean Paul Belmondo,
cracked into a smile. Lawrence Alexander Zachoides-Dunbar, my general
dealer with multi-way connections: a Greek father, a Scots mother, and an
assumed Balham accent. His multiple pasts included Cambridge, half a doctorate
in mediaeval literature, the curious end of the antique trade, and a
cameo role in a celebrated dope bust.
“You’re going to love this, Nick,” I can recall the exact cadence of his
catarrhal chuckle, his leer, as he wedged open the bronze door of his old Jaguar
3.4. (I have to get his status details right. Before the Puritan Paramilitaries
erase his memory from the surface of the earth.)
I helped him inside with a tea-chest. Then we struggled with the battered
black trunk on the roof-rack.
“This little business is for the upper room,” he murmured. I told my assistant
Willy to mind the shop; and hoped that his preoccupation with Krishna
Consciousness wouldn’t leave him at the mercy of the more mercenary customers.
We humped everything upstairs, cursing rusty protruding nails, and
dumped it all beside the sagging sofa bed in my office, pushing aside the rumpled
scrolls of day-glo posters,the heaped comix and sex mags. My fibre-optic
desk ornament had been left switched on, like a luminous jelly-fish slowly
expiring in the gloom. For the blinds of the upper room were never raised.
This was my sanctuary, where I could get stuck into my tacky stuff. PP called
it, with decreasing levity, the Chamber of Horrors.
I fumbled at the sink with dirty cups and coffee powder. Larry pulled out
Rizlas, and his tiny brass bird-shaped casket. He began skinning up.

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The Qliphoth

Posted: 17/12/2025 by vequinox in Literature
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“Where did you get hold of that? Where?” He just kneels there stupidly,
clutching the remote control like a protective talisman. “You’ve been scavenging
in my bedroom. My personal space. You’ve been going through my things . . .”
Her voice swells with anger. “I don’t believe this,Lucas, it’s really hurtful, my own
son fingering through my private stuff, it’s horrible. You’ve no bloody right.
What the hell’s got into you these days? Why do you do these things?”
“I was just looking for a used tape. To record Solaris. I didn’t bring any of
my own tapes with me.” For a moment he is feeble with pretence and
self-loathing. But he’s right, he has a basic right to know, doesn’t he? Doesn’t
she support the universal right to knowledge? Isn’t that her business? He’s
going to put it to her but she’s already away, firing on all cannons.
“I suppose you just found it accidentally. On purpose. Maybe you’re compiling
a dossier on me. Parental failures you have known . . .”
“I just remembered bits about the show. As a kid . . . Look, I only wanted to
know . . .”
“You didn’t have to watch this far. You could have had the decency to stop,
couldn’t you?” She’s quivering with anger, hurling down her jacket and bag as
she paces furiously about the room. She starts to snatch up books, magazines,
papers—and as she swings round and thrusts his tattered college applications
into his face, he can see she’s in tears. “It’s not as if you didn’t have more
important things to do. That is, if you want a future of your own. Instead of
rummaging about in other people’s utterly finished business.”
“But it is my business . . . And Dad’s, as well. Look, Pauline, I’m not trying
to take sides . . .” He’s not sure if that’s true. His parents can’t both own the
truth. Maybe somehow they’re both wrong, and nothing is true. But somebody
owes him an answer. Something that will structure his shadow . . . This
dark matter is clouding his life, it’s in his blood, so what the hell are the material
facts?
She’s gone into the kitchen. She’s lighting a cigarette, the first for months,
and her small fingers are trembling—but to hell with her fragile game, sometimes
you have to break heads, break the silence. He’s sorry, sorry, Mum, but
he can’t let her get away, not now.
“I just don’t get it. You could talk about Dad, Nick, call him what you like,
to thousands of invisible TV voyeurs. That’s what you’d call them now, isn’t
it? You could share him and his illness, no, let’s get it right, his madness, his ‘
mania’, those were some of your words, you could share him, warts and all,
with all those TV amps—but years and years later you still won’t tell me, your
son, anything, not one damn real thing. I’m not a camera, I guess. ”
“That film was a violation, Lucas. A travesty. It misrepresents me. I’d been
promised greater control, but—”

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