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Supper proved as silent as the ride from town but Sarah, tired
and perplexed, did not care. Too weary even to eat, she picked at
her food. She had made a salad from the potatoes but when she
explained the change in menu to Ben he only grunted.
He ate quickly. When he finished he pushed his plate away and
got up. At the sideboard he took a can of tobacco and a pipe and,
seating himself across from her again, proceeded to fill the pipe
from the can.
Sarah watched him silently, noting the deftness of his long fingers.
As though sensing that he was being observed he looked at her
directly for the second time that day. The dark eyes had softened.
“If you’re worried ’bout being here alone, don’t be. Mrs. Thompson
promised she’ll come tomorrow.”
“Yes, I know. It’s all right, Ben.”
He got up and walked into the living room as Sarah began to
clear the table. The aroma of pipe tobacco followed her into the
pantry, forcing her to swallow hard against the nostalgia that suddenly
filled her throat. Danny had smoked a pipe.
There was no point in trying to wash the dishes in cold water so
she stacked them in the pantry and wiped off the oilcloth on the
table before going to the living room door.
Ben sat in a wooden armchair beside a large dining table, a newspaper
in front of his face. He had removed his boots at the back
door when he came in, and now he sat in his stockinged feet. He
still wore his overalls. A domed radio, near to his hand on the table,
crackled out the nine o’clock news.
This room, although austere, was as tidy as the others. The linoleum
which covered the floor had been recently swept. A brown
leather couch, similar to the one in the kitchen, sat along the wall to
the right of the door. On the opposite wall stood a buffet which held
a mantel clock, a few china ornaments and vases, as well as a tarnished
silver teapot. The heavy green drapes at the windows looked
dusty and faded but tonight Sarah did not care about drapes.

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(The producer has turned down faders and pulled out patch-leads at random.
He is under panic attack—what will Mr. Chamberlain say? A staff
announcer dashes to an adjacent studio. “. . . owing to technical difficulties, we
cannot bring you the conclusion of our interval talk by Colonel Arthur
Parker-Byrd . . .” The Colonel’s lips still move soundlessly behind the double
glazed partition, he continues his spiritual de-briefing and barely looks up as
the producer blusters in mouthing excuses . . .)
HOW DID I LOSE TRANSMISSION? BEDDOWES GOING TO
THE BOG IN THE MIDST OF DARKNESS TURNING ON ALL THE
LIGHTS I COULD SCREAM…
Afterwards I was never quite awake. Just the old rapid eye movements. Under
the woofly blanket. Under the flaky ceiling. Under the drip of the moon.
Waiting in vain for the next installment of my Teachings . . .
These memoirs confuse me. Why, why, do they insist on blocking my
neurotransmissions with chlorpromazine? Do they think my neurotransmitters
can beep out through my skull? As if I were the old Soviet transmitter
“Woodpecker”, bombarding the West on shortwave at forty million
watts?
It is closing time in the Gardens of the West, I know that for sure. Even
with my Rabbinical hat on, even in this sweltering noon, I feel a chill, a demon
of cold with long claws, and I feel that evil feeling crawling around my hatband.
My metal-framed glasses produce a curious stinging current behind the
bridge of my nose. The black jacket and the black books must protect me.
Jago was obviously exasperated when I first adopted this Hasidic style of
dress—domed hat, long beard and black suit. “I don’t see the point of it,” he
grumbled, “You’re not Jewish. According to our records, you’re not even circumcised.
Supposing we had some Jewish clients! What would they think of this
Hippy-Brigade intellectual in his fancy dress parade of stolen knowledges? I think
you are trying, are you not, to make fun of the Father of Psychoanalysis. Perhaps
in this way you hope to mock I, Jago, a surrogate father. Perhaps you act out your
metaphysical frustrations? Perhaps you read too many of the paper-bound books
on therapy, I don’t know. Better to take your lithium carbonate.”
But my brain ticks relentlessly. Every strand of each synapse is numbered.
Numbered are all the hairs of my beard. And mighty are the powers thereof.
It is overcast in the West, towards the sea. Perhaps it is already raining on
the holiday chalets, the weapon dumps, the garden tourist traps. I hear thunder,
distant megatons of it. All around the Western world…

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UGGA

Posted: 11/01/2026 by vequinox in Literature

twenty
The unstoppable Indo-European
crosses the borderless land
he names the New Earths
names meant to vanish in the future
on the altar of Esperanto trade
a child is hungry
and steals
Birth of Laws
the first list of illegalities
the poor first lawbreaker
the building of the first prison cell
imprisonment and escape
opposite concepts multiply
man is smarter
than ever
purposedly
will build his first Temple

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Vespers

Posted: 11/01/2026 by vequinox in Literature

Hunt

Before I summon an antler
caribou vigor, an injured hoof,
dance in the arctic air, let
the moss be digested and
the heath wasted, bloomed
ferocity, wind’s piercing
the stag’s flesh and let his
muscle feed my newborn
and his grandfather during
the winter’s clasping talons
before I take you today
let your sperm grace life with
your stamina, dedication to
family and tundra’s wild call

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